Monthly filing: May 2015

A Zen like confession


On the evening of their seventh wedding anniversary, candles were lit on the table and a bunch of white roses were placed beside the red wine bottle. He raised his glass and said, "Thank you." He said, "If I hadn't met you, I couldn't have imagined it“
”Now it's your turn, "she said." I began to worry day by day. If allowed, I hope you can still love me for the next seven years“
"I will," he said. "Look at me now. My skin is sallow, my hair is falling, and my body is bloated. It's the same as seven years ago. Nobody will accept me except you."
"No, some things have made you completely different from before."
"Don't worry!" He took her hand. "Guess what gift I bought for you?" He asked
He asked her to close her eyes and take out a red packing box from the drawer at the edge of the table: "OK." When she opened her eyes, he said, "There is another gift."
The time is just right. Someone knocked at the door and handed him a letter
"Remember the first love letter I wrote to you?" he asked
"Remember," she was surprised, "I put them in the jewelry box in the wardrobe."
"Don't open it now." He took her hand and said, "Tell me, can we have another child?" His eyes were earnest and full of begging.
"I'm also special... But, you know..." She looked at him: "In short, it's very difficult now..." She said
He was disappointed and looked at her: "I also know that I had that experience... But I am more and more afraid that nothing will always belong to me. If one day we are no longer fertile, it is simply inconceivable."
"You are too nervous." She held his hand. "Why don't we go to the hospital tomorrow?"
"Not required" He suddenly became excited: "I have planned everything. As long as you promise to take another risk, we can spend 500000 yuan to go to the United States to give birth, so that he will have 20 years less struggle. Give him the best education, the most expensive investment, and all that we can have now to him. We used to have no ability, but now we have. Look, when the time comes, we will sell all tangible assets and move the whole family Min, have you ever thought of any land in Hawaii or Southern California... "He squeezed her hand and said," Please, take another risk and give yourself a reason, America... "
"I'll think about it again," she said
"You don't understand at all." He suddenly waved his hand. "Are you willing or not?"
The last anniversary dinner ended in discord. He drove back to the factory of the company, and she went upstairs to sleep directly.
After walking around the workshop, he was ready to go back to his office in the office building. Passing by the financial office, he saw R who was still working overtime. He was embarrassed: "You are always right." He said, "I shouldn't talk to her about having another child."
"She didn't agree?" R asked
"I thought about it for a while, but it was still too selfish. I didn't take care of her feelings, and it was really too risky."
"In fact, you can also adopt a baby and make full preparations so that even when he grows up, he will never realize that several couples in my circle have done so."
"Do you think we also have..." He was embarrassed to continue: "The blood relationship is still a tough problem. I'll persuade her again. You should leave work early." He said
"But how can they not know when they grow up?" he asked suddenly when R was going to step out of the door of the financial office
R turned his head: "Those babies are abandoned babies diagnosed with congenital mental retardation"
She woke up at noon the next day and opened his gift on the bed. It was a sky blue crystal dolphin. She read his letter:
Hello, we still love each other, and we can express our love in this way. You are 35 years old this year, and I can write to you for 30 years without accident. But every time I hand you a letter in person, I am not surprised. In fact, I have been doing this. About a year ago, I found a trust organization and wrote all love letters for 30 years at one go, That is, every year you will receive a love letter I imagined regularly, which may reduce the expectation of such a little surprise by a few points, but you will always know that looking forward to something is one of the best things.
This year is the seventh year of our marriage. Since the sixth year in the past, everything has been fine. The only regret is that we have no children. I didn't take good care of you. I hope there is another chance
She was a little tired and threw the letter aside. Although she had just woken up, she always felt tired frequently during this period. The room is still the original layout. Except for the wedding picture frame on the bed head, it is no different from the original one. The sun shines through the window, and she is in a trance. Suddenly, she thinks of many past events. Yesterday was their wedding anniversary, but she does not feel sad.
She went downstairs, went into the bathroom, rubbed her fluffy eyes and hair, and carefully dressed herself. When she walked out of the door and came to her parking space, she suddenly understood everything:
Maybe it's time to adopt an abandoned baby. She said to herself.