Summer of 2004
Hello, in the summer of 2004, when you were 17 years old, your body was crazy and you were full of curiosity and imagination about the world. The world is so big that nothing can stop you. If you want to, you can look down from the clouds and look up in the middle of the month, and there will never be such a scene in your life. Today, you are content with the status quo, disappointed with yourself, smoking and drinking, just a living corpse. Occasionally, small struggles have no starting point, so you also completely die, compromise with the world, and yield to yourself. You think that the process of life is to constantly lose the beautiful words of youth, love, ideal, and friends, which you now think is just a fart, Even farts are not. They all gradually disappear and lose. You are too lazy to take care of them. The final outcome is the same, but the time is long and short, and the process is good and bad.
However, in the summer of 2004, you were not like this. When the evening wind hit, you lay outside the house of your hometown to enjoy the cool, looking at the vast Milky Way, with dew in your dream, and the early sun shining on the mosquito net. In the long summer, you will go to take a bath in the big pond of the neighboring village with SC on time in the afternoon of the day every day, and then steal a melon from someone else's melon field in the moonlight before going to bed at night. The largest melon is usually the kind covered with grass. You carry a snake skin bag and a melon weighing three or four kilograms. You are swaggering in the moonlight, singing songs, and look fearless. At that time, you had just learned how to surf the Internet. You would ride a bike for an hour from home in the middle of the night in the rain to surf the Internet in the town, pretending to be depressed, pretending to be sad, listening to Park Tree's "Those Flowers", and then cheering cheering cheering cheering and then braved the rain to go home from the town to make up for sleep. At that time, you read the first pornographic novel, learned to masturbate, and compared with SC, you had to masturbate more than a few times a night. You thought it was great. Say four, SC said seven, you said nonsense, and you expressed deep doubt, SC explained that the first one who didn't come out didn't believe it. Shit, another one came out, but still didn't come out. He was so surprised that he didn't dare to do it again. He saw the first so-called "yellow video", SC said that he went to eat at his relatives' home in the town on New Year's Day, and then came back to pick up food on the street stall. He carefully hid it in his own food store. In order to contribute to you as an experienced person, you and SC, SXF's three cats were in the second floor attic of SXF's house. Damn it, their facial features were destroyed and they were disappointed. You only remember that it was an old beautiful film. The man was thick and dark, the woman was like a flower basket, and there were snakes, donkeys, horses and other livestock in it. It was totally beyond your imagination. Your later rejection of the old beauty was probably a shadow left by that time.
At that time, you vaguely felt that the girl was beautiful and indispensable in life, and a tension from inside to outside was surging against you. You felt that you wanted to fight with the world, even if you were crushed to pieces, but until now, you have never fought with the world, but have been killed by the world. You never give up, constantly compromise, and constantly comfort yourself, As a result, the world is so big that you become a real mole ant. When you carry food that you can move, you begin to prepare winter food in summer, and you start to panic when there is no overnight meal.
But in the summer of 2004, you didn't care about food and vegetables. You just wanted to take dreams as horses, go to a distant place, and see the prosperity of the world. You wanted to hide in the mountains after the prosperity ended, and then you survived. You built a house with adobe, dug a well, found a salt mine, and produced salt grains by yourself. You grew cotton and soybeans. In winter, you could plant radish seeds, and in summer, lentils climbed onto the rack, You light a cigarette that you dry yourself, sit on the stump in front of the door facing the wind, and you think I have nothing to ask for in my life, just want this, just want this.
The snow drifted in the sky. It snowed for three days and three nights in a row. You lay beside the stove with the fire burning. You stroked a red fox that had nowhere to go. The two people depended on each other. You felt that the river was declining and the stars were changing.
The wind is blowing. I hope you can still remember the stories and innocent ideas of the summer of 2004.
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22:45, March 14, 2013