XH：

Hello, XH, as the saying goes, "It's a treasure not to stay too big." I found from all sides that you have no symptoms of primary middle-aged dementia so far. When I read Haizi, you read Beidao; when I read Freud, you read Weininger; when I read Roman Roland, you read Zweig; when I read Luyao, Wang Xiaobo, Ye Saining and Hemingway, you read Feng Tang, Mo Yan, Salinger and Foucault. In short, we are not far or near on the road of literature and art, but as time goes by, I believe you will go farther than me, I am a person who has never made a definite decision. I have an axe of the devil of the world, which can only be played a few times. It is an impulsive personality. You are like water grinding stones. The terrible part of this personality is that although I don't know how short the time is, the end is doomed. There will always be a moment when water drips through the stone.
We met in 2003. In the age of extreme hormone secretion, we often saw SA, professor, you and me on the playground. At that time, you were 180+tall, with a little beauty on your eyebrows. Although you played the ball poorly, we pretended that you played well and let you play forward. I was short and shrewd, and had the courage to kill gods and Buddhas, Known as "Landmark Buddha" SM, he played as a guard. The professor often danced and yelled when the enemy rushed. He had the momentum of Zhang Feihou to break the enemy's courage. As a goalkeeper, he was a little shabby. So far, the scars after the spread of pimples have not disappeared, and he is sad to think about it. Therefore, character determines fate and appearance also determines a bit. Later, your football skills increased greatly. You did a good job of bouncing the ball, picking the ball, dribbling, crossing the crotch, and feinting, which gradually confirmed and consolidated your position as a striker. The number of goals gradually rose to the fourth place after LS, SA, and XJ, ranking fourth, and won the honor of "iron boots". Occasionally, you can attract one or two young girls to stop and watch. It is worth your hard work to practice secretly in the summer sun.
At that time, we had our own love. I fell in love with a girl and had letters. You know something, I turned my one shouldered backpack inside and out when I was unprepared, and finally found it in a sandwich with a zipper at the bottom of the second floor. I still remember your secret smile. I also like to inquire about privacy. I always believe that this is the driving force of progress, With my perseverance, I have learned a lot of first-hand information. Even the name of the professor's crush on the girl in junior high school was learned by me, but as a grumbling you, we can never know exactly which girl you like. So we guess that you have an affair with HP, and sometimes you have an unfair relationship with XX, But until the end of high school, we didn't get any news. Many years later, when I saw the sticker on BMW's buttocks on the road, "It's easy to hide, but it's difficult to prevent", I suddenly thought of you.
In Infernal Affairs, Han Chen firmly said, "I will pay you back sooner or later when I get out." In the summer of 2010, we were sitting in a small restaurant, and you revealed that you were chatting with a little girl. Brother Lu and I looked at you, a bottle of beer came down, and we were moved. One night after the chat, you sent a picture to Brother Lu and me, which suddenly increased our minds, Like the river water, Brother Lu said, "What should I do?" I said, "Steal the QQ of Naya." At that time, I studied how to bypass the billing system in Internet cafes, After ASP injection, streamer and violent cracking, Brother Lu asked, "How can you steal?" At that moment, all the skills in his hands were useless. I said, "I tried the original password when I used to help this girl register QQ." Unexpectedly, in five or six years, you didn't change your password. When I went online, you were forced to go offline. When you went online, I was forced to go offline, In this up and down gap, we took a look at the QQ of several girls who were very likely to open their QQ space. We got what we wanted and were satisfied. When you called, you said solemnly, "I'm disappointed. I hate people prying into my privacy". I finally understood that in the long years, when gossip was put in front of you, You wish you were more eager than anyone to have a look. When others want to talk, you pretend not to be interested and have mixed feelings. This is actually a strategy. It's really different between scheming and not thinking.
In 2011, I was very poor and turned to you from ZJ. At that time, you hid in the mountains and forests to observe how granite turned into silicate. As you were near the boiler for a long time, the acne became dark. The once shining beauty mole between the eyebrows also lost its luster. I spent a week in your presidential suite, drinking soda and eating compressed biscuits, When I'm in high spirits, I pick up someone else's meal card and go to a five-star hotel hidden in the jungle to have a full meal. Like a hibernating animal, night and day are reversed. I watch dozens of gigabytes of movies on your computer, ranging from "Gandhi", "Dancing with Wolves" to multiple identity killings. Later, I found a place that is one yuan away from you, Every day, I listen to music on the BMW X5, play chess, and occasionally get out of the car to measure the mud proportion of the cement mixing pile. On rainy and windy days, I hide in the reconstruction project department of an abandoned school to study the new works of the Caribbean and catwalk. It is estimated that this is also your current state of life. People want to change when they are idle. We say we want to do something big, and we will have enough food and clothing for the rest of our lives, Loser's ideal is to embrace girls from left to right. Luxury cars run from side to side. When entering, they take a bath and take a sauna. When leaving, they help saddle and mount a horse. However, we can still call ourselves literary youth. This is too vulgar. We say that our ideal is freedom, which comes from two aspects, one is material freedom, the other is spiritual freedom. Material is the foundation of everything, so we should first pursue material freedom.
Later, we smelled the smoke curling in the night wind. An oven was set up under a tent. Snow ice beer was supplied. Roasted wings, corn, green peppers, leeks and dried chives were served. Before we set out, we ate two parents in law cakes and a bottle of beer. The night wind blew, and the dirt trucks came and went. The little bee's radio with flash memory card was playing songs. It was rainy at night, We hummed "Sister Hiroshima, the Spanish pie you gave me melts me sweetly", rode the electric tricycle coquettishly in the yellow street light fog, returned to the dilapidated three storey attic to sleep in a whole sleep, and started again and again. Later, we began to get bored. On the way to pursue material freedom, we didn't take success as a must. Before we were ready to give up, you went to Shanyin Road alone. It was summer. The hot sun penetrated the house, tilted and depressed until the night came. You called me and were wandering on the Shanyin Road, sleepless tonight.
I remember the lyrics written by Li Zhi in Summer on Shanyin Road:
"I didn't say goodbye as I did last time when you left this time. Goodbye is just fucking goodbye."