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Hello, I fooled around with you in the spring of 2010. You are a person with strong self-discipline. At that time, I pursued a girl and came from KS. We two men lived in a small room with an area of 10 square meters like a pair of base friends. Your shift seemed extremely strange to me. The three shift system is to work every two days. Sometimes we sleep in the daytime, sometimes we sleep at noon, I found a job where I couldn't make ends meet. I occasionally blackmailed you for a meal of fried egg rice or fried noodles. Now I think it's very interesting. Sometimes I go to the Little Fly Restaurant to drink a bottle of snowflake beer when I'm extravagant. When the night comes in spring, the smoke curls up on the way back through the Internet cafes. Sometimes we rush in and come back separately, Lying on the mat with bare arms and looking at the rough painted ceiling, when it was hot, we got up several times in the night, ran to the bathroom on the second floor, put a basin of cold water from head to bottom, and then slept separately with bare arms. Later, we wanted to change to a large house. We strolled back and forth in numerous residential areas on Penglai Road, but failed to find a house with 400 yuan, two rooms, one hall and bathroom, We saw all the advertisements on the telegraph poles, toilets and simple houses, and finally we returned to the 191 room on the third floor north of the house. The sun was just right, and the wind blew in, and we could occasionally smell the smell of camphor trees in the air.

Later, when I parted hands, you jokingly asked me that I was still strong, that I had returned to a single life, and that you were not much better. As a loser, you came to the city for love, and to be closer to your idealized little girl. What you described back and forth was just a rational action, and never saw any substantive progress. At that time, you were still writing, I wrote some prose poems in the space. They were scattered without form or spirit, and the poems were even less. However, because of the parallel prose like words such as "entangle Jin", "smile like flowers", and "loneliness collapses into sorrow", I often had one or two female netizens shouting in unison below, cheering. I often hid behind my mouth and sniggered, but the good times didn't last long, One day, I finally fell into your hands. It was autumn. I got a mainframe with a big butt LCD monitor. The two of us played stand-alone games at dawn. You played the stand-alone version of Warcraft, and I played the game of plant vs. zombie. As a loser, another function of the computer cannot be ignored. My 1TB Pentium has stored hundreds of gigabytes of adult videos at most, It was dark and windy that day. When I came back from the company, I was bored and decided to spend my lonely time in the virtual world. You usually came back after 12 o'clock in the middle shift. I calculated the time, but I was not in good condition that day, or the novelty of the video gradually declined. I lingered until I entered the foreplay. I had no choice but to find the rare version of Lina Sakamoto, Sex bar, with you blooming in spring, I feel gradually growing. In the autumn wind at night, I feel a little warmth rising from the back of the spine to the hypothalamus. What a wonderful feeling! Suddenly, you didn't knock at the door and burst in. I was unprepared and jumped up from the stool. The scene was a bit awkward. Why did you come back so early? At the end of the night, the machine broke down and left work early. My wisdom has been destroyed by you. Fortunately, it has not had any psychological shadow on my future life. In order to make up for the psychological trauma, I have always been above embarrassment and have deep sympathy for those who have the same experience with me.

As the days went by, Luo Dayou sang in his love song: "You once said to me that you would always love me. I understand what love is, but I left this city later. It is a city that I should never miss. What I had in this city was only failure and unforgettable memories. Later, I came to a small city in the north, I cut off all contact here. I didn't have a cell phone like an ascetic monk. In the autumn of 13 years, I stayed in the cold town in this winter. I used the 2M broadband to apply Master Hongyi's verse, "Spring is full, the heart of heaven is full", in memory of the year I once seemed to practice: we came to the world alone, left alone, and I cried a few times when I was alive, People cry a few times when they die, that's all.

In the evening, we met again on the Internet. During our conversation, we talked about material and spiritual topics. Who the hell knows how to talk about such a perverse topic? You said you wanted to make money and work hard to make money. If there were two appearances, your wife would not need to work. If you had money, you could go to the best school for your children. I would not object to driving your children to school and studying abroad, I just said that spiritual life is needed. Wang Xiaobo said in the Silent Majority that it is not enough for a person to have this life, he should also have a poetic world. I think this is the life I want, and at least the pursuit is also interesting. I don't like to argue with others about something. Plato recorded in the Republic that Aristotle argued with a lot of people about justice. Although Aristotle seemed to have the upper hand every time, I believe that none of those who lost ever felt that they lost, We state our own opinions, absorb others' opinions if they are reasonable, and go to hell if they are unreasonable. There is no need to argue. You talked about the choice of a girl once, and emphasized that this is the reality. Life is a slow process of being hammered. As people grow older, their hopes disappear day by day, and finally become like cattle being hammered. But until now, I still believe that I will continue to grow stronger, and nothing will be hammered at me. I admit it, but I don't accept it, This is the place where spiritual life can be comforted and full of hope. Otherwise, one day we will have everything that material life brings us but find that we have nothing. It is like having the highest configuration computer but no electricity. This is my understanding. I hope your dreams will be successful in the future!