I have imagined leaving here for countless times, and today I finally understand that those are just imagination.
I really want to leave. I don't feel too strong. I'm not happy or lost.
be it so.
Around the 31st, there is really a different life.
It is the mood of the end of the world. It came again when I was most afraid of its appearance.
My good friend resigned, as she had planned, without any nostalgia. God knows how I envy her. I can say goodbye to the city that has lived for five years, and then go to the next station happily.
Sometimes giving up is also a kind of courage.
Is it because I gave up too much before, so I used up all my courage?
What should I do?
What should I do?
What should I do?
Why do you think this is because you want to write here less and less?
Have you ever felt this way? Sad, angry, powerless, unable to see the direction but unable to give up the previous efforts. When you are unhappy, you repeatedly tell yourself that these things will pass. Think of those friends who don't know where the future is, at least you have a direction to work on. So, you begin to look for those small reasons that can be called happy in the unsatisfactory life, so that you can at least have a good mood when you sleep at night, not insomnia, and maybe have a good dream. Look, this is your life now. Even happiness has become a "luxury". I really don't know what I still insist on. fool.
Of course, how long will this life last? When I have saved enough courage and capital, I will say goodbye to you immediately without looking back.
Sometimes I feel that such a life is really hopeless.
Not everyone has this feeling, because not everyone will experience this life. It seems that since four years ago, my life has not followed the original trajectory. I like reading novels before and now. There are too many books to put. I always dream of having a study. But from this moment on, I don't think I will buy novels anymore. I think the world there is so wonderful that I think the reality is also wonderful; People there can live a life that ordinary people can't easily understand, but I obviously can't meet them in reality. That kind of life can only come alive in imagination. Now, I understand.
At this moment, I want to try to change, just as I tried to accept the job I didn't like a few days ago. The roommate said, "You are so awesome. You fired several companies.". However, when I was working for a position I didn't like in a company I didn't like, I had to smile at everyone and pretend to be calm, which only I knew. In fact, "empathy" is a very empty and impractical word, because only one can understand all the experiences and complex psychological processes in one's heart.
In fact, the pain in my heart will gradually weaken over time, and will also be consumed over time. I just don't want to worry those who care about themselves, so I will try to calm down when my heart is tumbling with turbulent emotions. I smile and say that I am really good, I have no pressure, and I can move forward with a smile.
So, now, what I want most is courage, because only with courage can I face the unknown future alone. In fact, we still have to live. After taking the first step, everything will gradually improve.
(2013-03-16 20:29)
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courage
Can't understand
result
Our life
Majority
emotion
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Is this our life? Always be responsible, secular, and beneficial These invisible ropes bind. From the beginning, we are following the path of others, whether we like it or not. Success, failure and loss were originally the result of our choice, but now they can only be the reason before our choice. Unfortunately, most people do not understand; More regrettably, some people understand, but have no courage to follow their own heart.
(2012-12-17 18:49)
The pace of the New Year is approaching, and it will be one year longer. I don't know which year it will start. I will be afraid of celebrating the New Year or birthday, and want to enjoy every minute and every second, so as not to let time go meaningless. When I was not in primary school, I looked forward to the Spring Festival because I could play with my younger brothers and sisters on Xiaohegang's game console, wear beautiful clothes, and get lucky money from my elders. Now, I'm afraid I can't buy the game card of Little Overlord anymore, and I won't look forward to the new clothes I will wear on the New Year's Day, nor do I care how much money I can have this year. I used to think that time did not leave any trace on me. I was the same as I was, just changed a city and lived the same life as before. Until one day, I found that the novels I had read that made me cry were no longer able to earn my tears, and even moved very weakly. The stories I had expected were finally written, but I never wanted to know how the people and things in the books ended. The original time is really a powerful weapon. Unconsciously, it still let me slowly, slowly, change
When faced with two choices, when you only want to make a decision alone, are you afraid to face them or will you encourage yourself to be brave? What kind of mood do you feel when you find that there is no choice at all, and the end is always there but you don't know? At this time, I always think that maybe one day, when my questions today are well answered, maybe I will miss myself at this time, maybe.
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(2012-12-01 21:23)
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friend
Every year
One at a time
Environmental Science
feel
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Classification:
Shallow. Time record
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We haven't seen each other for four years, have we?
I remember that four years ago, we had just experienced the college entrance examination. Everyone accepted the changes in life with different feelings and faced different choices. Everyone was in a hurry and headed for the next station. I didn't even have a chance to say goodbye to you. In this way, our college life began.
It was the winter of my freshman year. It was extremely cold. You stand on the school playground and call me and say: Yang Yang, I suddenly miss you. I can't find a suitable word to express the feeling. At that time, our distance was very close, more than two hours of train, but for various reasons I could not personally feel your life until you left the city. What a pity.
The familiar tone on the phone. A few years have passed, your voice has not changed, you are still the same as before. So every time I hear your voice, it reminds me of the good times we had together. Countless nights, we stayed up all night. I sat on your bed and listened to you talk about those people and your past that I had not participated in. I miss you so much. I still remember that one night, you cried very sad. Although I have long forgotten what made you so sad, I still remember clearly that you told us in the middle of the night that you wanted to eat porridge. We certainly couldn't find porridge so late. Some of them were just instant noodles we often ate when we stayed up late hungry.
Now you have left the city where you graduated for internship and changed your environment and life. Our distance is farther, but our feelings are just like before. I can feel it. I hope you can live a happy life in the new city. You should take good care of yourself. I will not break my promise next summer. In the four years of college, you will give me your warmest wishes every year on this day, phone calls or text messages. You let me know that I can be missed so much. I feel so happy. Dear Nana, I always want to tell you that you are the most beautiful memory and best friend of my high school days.
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(2012-11-23 07:51)
Today's weather is very good. Although the balcony is full of clothes, the sun still finds a large gap and sneaks in. The roommate said that the window decoration on the glass window was beautiful, like a phoenix, which has never been seen in the south.
Yesterday when I browsed QQ space and found that everyone was saying thank you to others, I knew that yesterday was Thanksgiving Day. Compared with such western festivals as Valentine's Day, April Fool's Day and Christmas, I think Thanksgiving Day seems more meaningful. Most of the time, we are not good at expressing our feelings. This is a good opportunity. About yesterday, I was in no mood to send a thank-you message to every family member and friend like my freshman, because yesterday my reason was out of control, my mood was terrible, and I hurt the person who loved me most with my hard voice again. So, about yesterday, I don't want to say thank you, I just want to say sorry, really sorry. By the time I said those words, I had already regretted it. I know that you will forgive me, even without taking those words to heart. However, the more I think of your tolerance and indifference, the more sad I feel. I once swore to myself in my heart that I would never do this again, but I didn't do it. I don't like such myself.
What kind of situation do you like to lose your temper most? I am most likely to lose control of myself when I am worried about gain and loss. Because it is not directly gained or lost to be happy, full of so much uncertainty, disturbing. However, one day I will learn to resist this feeling, because I have a hunch that there will be many more such days in the future.
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(2012-10-31 19:45)
label:
Huayan
a place famous for its flowers
The flowers are ready again
Chinese music
A new couple
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Classification:
Shallow. Private store
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The Chinese music world women's group S.H.E has entered its 11th year. Selina Ren Jiaxuan, Hebe Tian Fuzhen and Ella Chen Jiahua are irresistible. Whether they fly alone or in groups, they have achieved good results every year! S. The friendship between H.E. and Huayan Music has lasted for more than 11 years. The three of them have changed from a little girl who was unknown 11 years ago to a female group in the Chinese music world. Together with Huayan Music, they have experienced laughter, sadness and tears. S.H.E has become a good synonym for "friendship". S. The relationship between H. E and Huayan Records has already sublimated the work to family like affection! Today, October 11, Huayan Music and S H. E Jointly held a press conference on contract renewal to continue to create a brilliant record for the women's Tiantuan! At the signing press conference, S.H.E put on the early spring clothes of 2013. The modern design combined with bright and colorful prints to show the charming fashionable spring atmosphere. The three of S.H.E also announced that their latest album "Flowers Are Blooming Again" will also be pre purchased on October 31 and released on November 16! Selina smiled at the press conference and said, "Time never forgives." Hebe is grateful for the growth he has experienced over the past ten years. Ella believes that all three people have become more brave, and their bodies and minds have become more courageous. The new album is titled "Flowers Are Blooming Again", echoing S H. E once sang "All the flowers have bloomed", Ella said emotionally: "The flowers bloom and fall, thanks and bloom again, just like every process we have experienced in the past 11 years, S.H.E blooms again!" S. H. After 11 years of debut, E has finally become a Chinese music group, whose singing strength and stage charm are deeply rooted in people's hearts! In 2010, Hebe Tian Fuzhen also launched two works "To Hebe and My Love "Win win certification of reputation and sales! Ella has stepped into the big screen from the TV series, and the box office of New Born Pair and Bad Girls has also broken the 100 million mark at home and abroad! After being injured, Selina returned to work slowly with positive force, actively participated in public welfare activities, and gave back to the society and cared for the weak in a practical way. The constant combination of the three and their mutual understanding have become a legend in the music world!
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