On September 22, 2015, "University, Dream, Wish One Heart" (excerpt)
I studied in "Jiangnan beyond the Great Wall", no matter how far or near, this is a new beginning for me. So, after my head got hot, I started an unprecedented attempt: to face the world in a high profile.
So I finally got my wish to participate in class management. This is a new challenge for me. All kinds of people, all kinds of things, look at everything to make everyone satisfied - the result is not satisfied.
I am very depressed, especially I am not satisfied with myself. So I wandered silently on my way, looking for a drugstore to relieve my troubles.
I found it. I can't satisfy everyone, but I can satisfy a large number of people, satisfy myself, and let myself have a clear conscience. Be good at yourself. After all, people are wonderful creatures in this world.
On October 6, 2015, Jiang Chenwei Life (1) (excerpt)
Since I entered the campus on September 4, 2015, I knew that my new journey had begun. I was wearing a white shirt and a pair of light blue jeans. Of course, now I wear a solid color, such as pure white and khaki.
I don't know why I wear this way, just as I don't know why I cut off my "long hair".
"What do I know?"
I know that I was exhausted every day in college, but I like this feeling. I want to change, because once I was tired of this state. Of course, including now.
However, the holiday came. The 14 day holiday destroyed the still established "Jiang Chen", but inspired the hidden "Jiang Chen".
Many people know that Jiang Chen is just my name on the Internet, and the result of Baidu is my blog "Dream Chen Feng". To be honest, the career I want to engage in most is related to the Internet. Even if I am asked to do copywriting every day
However, after I came to the Normal University, and because of the agreement, I am 90% likely to become a people's teacher. Recalling the accusation against the "people's teacher" in Dream Diary, I am afraid I will become the new "people's teacher".
Unless I can get rid of that bondage - money.
Money is a good thing. Let a "Wu Zhong" change from "indifferent" to a positive thing. Even a decimal place can make you difficult to move. In particular, there are not a few people who live for it in life.
Write here, finish what you want to say, and stop writing. I went out of my "little dark room" and came to the yard. I listened to the bleating of sheep and watched them gnaw grass, just like we gnawed our parents, from young to old, until we had gnawed our roots. The capable sheep have arrived at the grassland.
If there is a seal, if there is paper, you can only eat yourself. If you bite a few lice, you can barely make a living. Looking up at the stars every day is just a mouthpiece for tomorrow. Look for a little water at the bottom of the well. Even if it is polluted, it is also regarded as manna happily. Little did they know that out of the wellhead, it was a mountain spring.
The environment has bound us, and the network has liberated us. We tremble in reality, and we spout words on the Internet, which combine into two colorful and black and white worlds of life. Until the end, blending into gray.
Smiling, I put on my backpack and embarked on a new journey. No matter what happens, I will forgive everything on behalf of God, remember everything on behalf of the Emperor, and thank everything on behalf of Satan. The former is the time, the middle is the time, and the latter is the future.
On October 29, 2015, Jiang Chenwei Life (7) (excerpt)
Every moment of laughter and abuse in life is tense. No one knows whether the next moment is an open gun or a hidden arrow. I don't know who will remember the characters I wrote at this moment? Yesterday's provocation is still around my ears, today I have a shoulder to shoulder, and after countless smiling faces, they are all cold blades.
Originally placed everything to fantasy, from false to true. However, it is found that the truth is false.
On November 13, 2015, After Retrospection (excerpt)
I just want to write a paragraph of words in my heart quietly, not for anyone to see, but for a clear conscience.
For some reason, my college life gradually made me lose my direction, just like a lonely boat in the dark, unable to see the Beidou in the sky, leaving only a few shivers and fears in the drift.
Day after day busy, my weight dropped from 66 to 64, but after busy, I could only lie in bed, silently thinking of insomnia, I want to talk to you but I don't know who to tell you, I want to run but I have no strength
Apart from that, when I brought the computer over, I had planned to record everything slowly with articles. However, when the memory module did not arrive, I chose to remain silent at tortoise speed, slowly reliving it in silence, just like cattle and sheep ruminating, leaving some dregs, and turning my head to vomit in nobody's place.
After spitting out, we should also carefully look around, and slowly bury the residue in the dark earth, into the world where no one cares about it, just like the disappearance of "sharp Chen Feng" in the online world, to just do "Guanguan Jujiu, in the river island, a beautiful lady, a gentleman's good match~~"
After all, I became more and more afraid, especially after everything was open and transparent, when the express posted its ID card number, I knew that there were countless "Jiang Chen" identities escorting four or five pieces of goods to Xinjiang.
On January 14, 2016, Looking Back at the First Experience of University (excerpt)
A person, slowly walking on the road of learning. Before I knew it, I had lost track of my original purpose. However, when I looked back after a long walk, I felt how lucky I was that I didn't take a turn. There are always countless crossroads on the way forward, and I miraculously chose here.
Don't say it's chicken soup. Because I will tell you that other roads have been broken, and those destroyed have no dross. I can only relive the warmth at the end of darkness after the so-called light falls. On the way forward, there may not be support, but there will be countless scissors from the authority to cut your branches. Let you, in the dark( light )China is moving towards the so-called right bank. So that you don't know whether it is love or hate. You can only blame yourself in silence. Perhaps in the infinitely distant future, you will become the so-called "authority" again
![Huiyuan Building of Normal University](https://www.mhcf.net/content/uploadfile/upyun_upload/201601/13dc1452658865.jpg)
**On March 20, 2016, The University I Want, Pursuing My Dream (excerpt)
The bath to purify the soul did not go, and the plan to borrow books from the library did not come true. A document puts five years of youth on the responsibility of teaching and educating people. I don't know if what I do is what I love. As I once wrote, if I became a people's teacher, how would I teach and educate people? It may bring Mr. Qu's shadow inexplicably.
Dreams are ethereal and elusive. Writing as money and survival, I can not write what I love. But to give up one's hobby for survival, one can only be happy and happy in pain. I remember saying that it is good to have more skills but not more skills. However, what's the use of having more skills but not more skills? Chinese teachers have felt a sense of saturation here. There will be more and more ways for the society to survive. Marketing strategy, code writing, and article writing are all art: it is difficult to achieve the extreme, but there is definitely a ticket to the extreme. The world may no longer be famous after Van Gogh's death.