It's the 29th, and November's life is finally coming to an end. For "Jiang Chen", it has become more and more difficult to write a chapter. After all, life is exhausting. It is extremely difficult to sit up in front of the computer. I always want to change myself, but I never thought that all my assumptions were ultimately wrongly paid by myself.
The date of 2021 is only December. Looking at all the words in the past, I realized that I had written everything I wanted to write. If life becomes a pool of stagnant water, then all the stories have lost their significance and value of existence. Therefore, I open the dream Chenfeng every day, but at the same time, I never write anything. Till today, it's really the end of the month and my good friend @Mu Ruoxi Also released a new version of the plug-in... Sure enough, people can never feel their own shortcomings without comparison. It is precisely because we can't feel our own shortcomings that we have become the best choice.
So I want to get out of my comfort zone. After half a year in the county seat, I finally walked in the county seat again at the turn of autumn and winter. Having seen the river and the blue sky, I took the candied haws on the street to drive the smoke of baked sweet potatoes to flow on the street. I swept around the busy people, but I didn't see any familiar figures. When I walked to the river, a man wanted to empty himself to listen to the silence of the water flow, and the watch kept shaking to tell me that I had received messages... I had no way to take off my watch, nor the ability to make the whole world quiet. Just sitting feeling the cold wind in autumn and winter, he took out his mobile phone to take a picture of something messy for himself.
I finally began to take photos of my life again. Life can't be just work, let alone living and living. The barren soil can not breed towering trees, and the dry spiritual world can not bear the grand dream. Sitting on the stone steps, I want to aim the camera at myself to take a good video of the eighth year of Fantasy Chenfeng. But I didn't think that I would delete all the anniversary videos hosted in Bilibili, leaving me stunned.
I was very happy in November @Coffee Cat 、 @Mu Ruoxi The manuscript of "Dream Chenfeng" proves that the platform of "Dream Chenfeng" still persists and exists. For me, it's always more interesting to watch other people's stories than to walk around alone at night. But if you tell your own story, you will find that the soul is dry, the words are dry, and... the languor that comes with silence and fatigue.
I want to change something.
I want to set up a flag for myself.
I want to plant a flag at the end of the year, and then I am surprised to find myself beaten in the face.
I am not a masochist. I just miss the feeling that I have been moving forward for my goal but failed again and again. At least when I move forward, I will not feel that I will fail. When we were about to fail, we still missed the feeling of powerless struggle.
What can I do in December?
- Change a new head of "Jiang Chen"
- Write a story for yourself.
- The mobile phone is used for less than 4 hours every day.
- Pick up your own melody for yourself.
- Take a Vlog for yourself.
- Write an article about your life.
- Read a book.
- Insist on sleeping at half past eleven and getting up at eight under normal circumstances.
Eight things, one month.
I hope I can finish it.
At least, try it.
