In the twinkling of an eye, it has not been updated for more than a year.It is not that there is no time, but it seems more important that there is no mood - the leisure time of middle-aged people would rather spend more time lying down and thinking about life.In fact, there is nothing to think about in life. I am no longer a minority who believes that hard work can improve life.This kind of argument is a bit too bad. The actual situation should be closer to the fact that hard work is not necessarily useful, but not hard work is certainly more doomed?The truth of the world will tell us that self struggle is essential to obtain a blessed future, but considering the history of the journey, it is all a matter of praying.Therefore, there is no power to fight for the possibility that is slightly higher than lottery. It is a short life, either turbulent or mediocre.The only wish is to be a casual person - go with the flow and do things conveniently.
After lying dead at home for more than half a year, I finally joined the new unit.In fact, we have spent almost a year of leisure life since we began to retreat last summer, which is almost equivalent to a Gap Year. However, it is not as rich and meaningful as the real Gap Year to travel, practice, and volunteer work, and we can only dream about the dreamland at most, which is purely a rest and health rest.Although the pace of life in the second tier cities has eased a lot, and I no longer have the sense of urgency and anxiety that I felt when I was in Beijing and Shenzhen - in fact, I was still at ease when I was just fooling around - the nature of the new unit determines that the inner volume will still exist more or less, which makes me a little panicked and I don't know what challenges I will face,I don't know whether it can also give new impetus to the old body and mind to cope with the dangerous interpersonal society and meet the dog like middle age life. Even if we are docile and muddle along, we just hope not to mislead others and make them laugh.
Recently, on a whim, I have been stirring up the corners of the website, adding or deleting a little detail without doing anything, and I have also taken the initiative to visit many other blogs.In the process of my idleness, I found that independent blogs, which mainly record life, are really a small circle, because for such isolated netizens as me, who rarely interact with others, I can always see several familiar faces on strange sites, which reminds me of a hot expression package - lead online, cherish this fate
After nearly two months of closed life, he has reached a state of apathy.The joy of being able to drive out just after the unsealing was fleeting, because I found that there was no place to go. It was like a world away. What followed was the usual boredom and idleness.I don't think it has much to do with whether to unseal. The only thing I can do is to stand idly by and watch various news releases. Rumors are widespread, and the official refutes rumors and then slaps on the face.On the afternoon when the epidemic just began to spread more than two years ago, it never occurred to me that until 2022, the annotation of magic realism would still be confirmed again and again in this land, which is irrefutable.
It is the 14th day of being banned, but the release is still far away.On the afternoon when I got home on March 11, I never thought it would be the last time to go out.This is the largest outbreak in China since the first generation of viruses swept through Wuhan. We, who began to be affected by various outbreaks two years ago, are still troubled by this, and even become more and more at the center of the vortex, as if the world was stuck in a backward period. However, how can the relentless time stop passing,It has made my spirit and body grow old day by day with the speed visible to the naked eye.
On the New Year's Eve of the Year of the Tiger in Renyin, I was bored to write these words in a village on the edge of a coastal city.I don't know why this year's lunar month is only 29 but not 30, and suddenly it's time to bid farewell to the old and welcome the new.
I didn't expect that the first log in 2022 would be like this.After loyally using the Disqus comment system for several years, I finally decided to change to a more friendly comment system for domestic visitors on a whim. Previously, the threshold of Disqus was a little high for ordinary netizens.After a round of investigation, it is found that Valine series (including Valine,Mini Valine and Waline, etc.) are relatively mainstream comment systems, so Waline was finally selected: first, because there are many deployment platforms supported, second, because the author's update and maintenance is still very active (here I would like to thank the main author, Mr. Yihong, for his dedication and selfless help), and third, the official provides a very convenient data migration tool.Finally, I deployed it on the CloudBase of Tencent Cloud, and the CDN+COS hosted by Hexo web pages in his home is equivalent to the whole family bucket of Conscience Cloud
This is a very tacky title.After a drink, I lost sleep for several hours.Lying quietly in the dark, my thoughts were flying. I remembered the sentence "The most ridiculous thing about sober people", so I listened to the song "Xiaochou", which was once too busy in the street. At that time, I thought it was just a mouthwatering song with simple melody and mysterious lyrics. I didn't expect to play it back many years later, but I felt that I had some understanding of its flavor, and I didn't know whether I should be relieved or helpless.Tomorrow and the past, freedom and death, why not forget, always end in a scrawl.
This is the most common day of the year. If you have to find something special, it may happen to be Thanksgiving Day in the West. At the same time, it also happens to be the node where I am one year old again.In recent years, I feel that time flies more and more. It seems that the next same date is coming before I do anything. Maybe the long-term inaction will make time flow away more easily.The only comfort is that I have the same lover today for two consecutive years, and I thank the world for not making me feel sad when things change.
For most of the year, there was no movement, plain and depressed panic all day long.After more than four years of mixed eating and death, it is possible to face another crossroads in life. After careful consideration, it is found that it is a common person who is a grass man, and personal choices will eventually be lost in the process of history, simply drift with the tide, escape from the scene, which is called "no desire, no desire, no ambition".
