Ten years ago, this day came as scheduled.

In the summer of 2013, I sat in the back row of the cinema and tried to resonate with other people's youth memories following the narration of the movie "To Youth". But I only remember that I was bored and the plot was not my way. Of course, the main reason for my failure is that I was 18 years old that year, my college entrance examination had just ended, and I was really having youth and feeling of youth.

It's not just about movies, it's not about the form of expression. Remembering youth was a cliche for me at that time. Today, ten years later, I am surprised that time passes quickly. Looking back, it becomes more frequent and difficult to restrain. "platitudes" have gradually become my norm.

I often recall the beginning of the 13th New Year. It was not winter vacation at that time. I was doing a comprehensive model test in the information classroom of the school. I didn't check my papers after answering them. I looked out of the window at the heavy snow. At that time, I was immersed in the space of consciousness. I felt that people could keep a vision all their lives and that the future should be a smooth road.

This confidence is strange, and I don't know where the confidence comes from.

Ten years later, those visions disappeared.

Ten years of blogging is not special. "10" is just the accumulation of numbers, but it has been given meaning again in front of human psychological activities. I think I need to take this opportunity to write down a little feeling.

Active deviation correction

Life is often a passive choice proposition, and the way to solve it is usually to follow it without making any noise. As a result, too many desires have been suppressed, and too much boredom has been tolerated.

This inevitably sometimes makes me feel out of control and self doubt in my life.

The ability to get out of control and correct self doubt is called active correction. Active correction has enabled me to have more tenacity and voice when facing life, and have the confidence to refuse a specific life. If I choose two key self corrections in the past decade, then one is that I decided to abandon my major in college and devote myself to my favorite industry; The other time is now, I have temporarily left my job and am setting a new track for my life.

Source of mobility

I am at the peak of my physical and mental state - for the future, yes.

A person's life is decades long, but most of the time is impossible to be in the exuberant state of youth, but is in stable aging and becoming more aging. This gradually made me realize that every day I am at the double peak of my physical and mental state. I can't waste this precious state. I want to explore more life possibilities while I am young.

I don't want to grow old, repeat, and lament that "I am no longer young". This refusal is the source of my action power. If you must expect something for the future, I hope it is: less similarities and repetition, more exploration and surprise.

These are some of my answers to life.

If you write in a hurry, your writing logic will be a little messy.

See you next decade.

Special thanks for the 10th anniversary:

• An old colleague. He preemptively registered the domain name of the blog I used more than ten years ago daishu.me , and give it to me
• Independent bloggers and other netizens who have subscribed to Twilight blog for a long time