To be honest, the past two years have been very ordinary. In the past two years, we have encountered many problems that we have never faced or thought about before. The most important thing is that I have always been troubled by minor diseases. Although minor diseases are not fatal, they always affect me in all aspects of life and work. Moreover, although some minor diseases are small, modern medicine is really incurable, which makes me very disturbed. The human body is a machine. In the past 20 years, I was too careless to take good care of it.

Maybe I was too sensitive, because I was too healthy in the days before that. Some people told me, which modern people are not troubled by some physical and mental diseases, such as insomnia, depression, constipation, stomachache, rhinitis, and allergies to many strange things.
In clinical medicine, there are five stages of patients' psychology: denial, anger, agreement, depression and acceptance. In the past two years, I have gone through the first four stages, and now I have entered the fifth stage, which is also the reason why I can calm down and write this article. The enthusiasm for life and learning is slowly being picked up, and some original plans are also slowly being considered.

The past two years can really be said to be the interval year of life, which is not very real and lacks a feeling that can not be expressed.

19 years is the same as previous years, and there are not many new things. It is worth mentioning that I saved some money to buy a new car I like.
I feel guilty for hurting a girl's feelings in 19 years, and I have no way to make up for it.
I was invited to have tea by the police station on the eve of National Day in 19 years. I don't want to mention the details. What I want to say is that there is no deviation in my thoughts. I know that I have always been a patriotic and responsible youth, which is from the bottom of my heart.

Now let's talk about my vision for the new year.

• Transform body and mind
• Able to continue learning
• Develop habits
• Go out more

All the visions add up to being able to manage your own life well.

About transforming body and mind 。 By the end of 2020, I hope my health can feel a significant improvement. Although some minor diseases cannot be cured, they can be optimized or improved from other aspects. This year, I will pay a certain amount of energy to listen to the advice of doctors or other professionals, and purposefully get rid of this unhealthy state, both physically and psychologically. Of course, good health will naturally lead to good mood.

About continuous learning 。 In the past two years, the energy is far less than before, and the learning ability is greatly reduced. In the new year, I will make changes, keep learning and adjust my technical stack professionally. Knowledge or skills can be learned for a lifetime. New knowledge and skills can be put to use no matter how long the work or time span is.

About cultivating habits 。 After living for so long, I don't know what beneficial habits I have. Habit is so important that it can deeply affect life, life choices and quality of life. Cultivate a habit, not limited to fitness, reading, writing, communication, bookkeeping, etc. In 2020, I chose fitness, reading, writing and bookkeeping as the first stage of habit formation.
I often have a feeling that why I can slack off to adhere to any habit for a long time. It's time to set a point for yourself to assess. It's not difficult to achieve the indicators, and you don't want to be too ambitious.

• Read more than 10 books a year
• At least one blog post is produced every month, and more than 15 articles are produced annually
• Spending bookkeeping, increasing income and reducing expenditure (started in November last year)
• The fitness plan and targets will not be very clear, but this year we will lose 5 kg

Acceptance at the end of the year, agreed. Form a habit, and then let the habit form me.

About going out more 。 Walk through at least two of the following cities: Tianjin, Chengdu/Chongqing, Xiamen and Changsha.

I hope that in 2020 I can find the unspeakable feeling that I haven't seen you for a long time.
If I had to describe this feeling, I would like to say: I am too insensitive now. I want to feel the obvious emotions, the feeling of running in life.

Happy people have only two things in common: they clearly know their life goals; I feel that I am moving steadily towards my goal.
——In the 1980s, two psychologists from Harvard in the United States conducted a study on "happiness".