To be honest, I don't know whether my idea is right or wrong. Once I saw China on the tip of my tongue in class, and the more I saw it, the more I felt something. People born in the land, living in the land, and finally dying in the land. Real time documentaries are propaganda of tradition and positive, but I always feel afraid of being limited to one thing, Fear becomes part of the landscape of something. Not that I don't like stability, but I'm afraid that my vision is too limited and human possibilities are too exhausted. It takes a lot of time to do one thing well and any thing well. For example, when I was young (in fact, I was in junior high school, and my grades had a great improvement at that time), I wanted to do research and explore the knowledge of physics. But now I am afraid of that kind of thing. Ordinary people may not be able to fill in the known theories in their whole life, let alone discover new ones.

In fact, I always criticize this idea. I think it is a kind of illusion of little Bourgeois. If I go to write, I should not imagine that the well-known published books can eat all my life, so I don't need to be busy for life. What's more, I should beware of being divorced from the masses or trying to educate others. It should be recognized that most contemporary writers are writers who do the same work as assembly lines in essence. Being a writer is a group of people who think from the perspective of that group of people. Recognize the rigid reality, accept it, and try your best to do the transformation in it.

It should be Sartre who said that people will eventually suffer from freedom. Being independent has its advantages, but it is true that I will not find a stable foothold. After all, I am still young and have too many limitations. Even if I have the ability to summarize all kinds of paths from the essence rather than from others' propaganda through observation and thinking, It also takes considerable time. What's more, mistakes. Now, it seems that many things can be done in the future, but most of those things are tried by very few people and need to be developed by themselves. However, in the face of the whole society, I still feel weak when I think about it. Confusion actually came into being from then on. So I should be more brave or more pragmatic.