Soon after that, I helped Su Yingxue volunteer again. On the way back to the dormitory, she asked me if I had found a girlfriend. I said yes. She also said that talking about friends would affect learning. I said that I don't have as many activities as you do. I have a lot of free time. This problem doesn't exist.
As the summer vacation approached, the girls' new dormitory buildings were ready. Those new buildings are the best in the school, both externally and internally. In addition to envy, the boy got a good opportunity. The girls' building is a restricted area for men, but taking advantage of this opportunity to move, a large number of boys openly shuttle between the girls' buildings. Many people said they had seen girls who only had three o'clock in the building.
I took great pains to move Feng Jia's things into her new address. Then I received Su Yingxue's request for help, which was the most surprising thing to me after I got to school.
From any angle, as long as Su Yingxue shows some interest, he can find hundreds of people willing to contribute at any time. The general principle for girls to find temporary jobs is that they should first choose their boyfriends, then other friends, and most importantly, the boys in this class. Does it mean that this good thing falls on me?
When I helped Su Yingxue move things, I found that she only had me as a helper. It took me more than half a day to help her move things. Su Yingxue has many heavy books and more sundries. In addition, there are two boxes of clothes. During this period, many people offered us a helping hand, but she refused. During the whole process of moving, my brain was in a state of confusion.
The next meal was also taken for granted. After dinner, Su Yingxue asked me if I had time to go with her. Through a day's observation, she seems to have something on her mind, although she always has a smile on her face.
The evening wind in early summer was very cool, so we chatted while strolling. I try to pick some interesting things to tell her, hoping to bring her emotions into the normal track. When walking to the gym, Su Yingxue said that she was a little tired and wanted to sit down for a rest. In fact, I wanted to say this for a long time, but I was embarrassed to say it.
Sitting side by side on the steps of the stadium, I talked a few more words, and suddenly I didn't say anything. I racked my brains to say something interesting, but found that most of the content had already been said. We sat together quietly and looked at the moon on the playground in the distance.
The school gymnasium is newly built. Except when there are activities, few people come here at night. This is also an ideal place for student lovers to talk. I watched a pair of people walking in front of us, and some people were sitting on the distant steps, gradually feeling embarrassed. Just when I wanted to ask to return to the dormitory, I suddenly heard a low sob. Turning her head slightly, she saw two tears on Su Yingxue's face, and she did not know where her old smile had gone.
The tears of women are extremely lethal, especially the tears of beautiful women, whose power can be described as terror.
I watched Su Yingxue cry softly, but I could do nothing. Fortunately, I found a packet of napkins in my pocket and took them out to her. Su Yingxue took the paper towel and didn't wipe it. She just turned her head and stared at me, making my hair straight.
When I turned my head and thought about how to deal with it, a soft body leaned on my shoulder. I suddenly felt stiff, as if I had stood in a military posture for seven or eight hours. After struggling for a few minutes, I summon up courage and gently embrace her.
Su Yingxue's body has been trembling, and I don't know what sad things she has encountered. I can feel her tears have soaked my clothes. Because I don't understand, I can't be relieved at all. We don't know each other very well. Her performance puzzled me very much.
Until now, I still don't know why she cried, just guess that the reason came from her home. But from then on, I knew that Su Yingxue's heart was very different from that of the person we knew.
One day soon after, I went to see a movie with Feng Jia.
On the way back to school, Feng Jia suddenly asked me about my stay with Su Yingxue that night. She said, "It's just between us. If you like Su Yingxue, go after her. I don't want to delay you or be delayed by you."
I smiled and said, "Do you want to change your boyfriend?"
She said, "I have this plan."
Although the words of both sides were meant to be a joke, we broke up after the joke.
After the summer vacation, the first day of my sophomore class ended. Soon after returning to my dormitory, I received a call from Su Yingxue. When she learned that Feng Jia and I had broken up, she kept apologizing to me. I just laughed. There was no need. I told him about Feng Jia and me.
After hearing this, Su Yingxue said softly, "I really don't understand. Why do you want to talk about friends?"
I smiled and said, "People often do things that are baffling. Not everything has a good reason. Don't you think so? Besides, I have caused you a lot of trouble."
Su Yingxue shook her head and said, "I won't care what others say."
Since then, Su Yingxue and I have met more often. We often chat together in the gym. It's a great pleasure to chat with her. We talked about a wide range of topics, such as astronomy, geography, poetry, music, and so on. I once suspected that I really fell in love with her, but reason made me persist in killing this idea.
Rumors about us also arise in every corner of the school. However, Su Yingxue doesn't care about this. Of course, I don't care. Several times we even joke about it. Su Yingxue is a very lively and lovely girl. Sometimes she is naughty, sometimes she is wayward. But I know that on her shoulders, she will always bear the heavy burden of the family.
Our relationship has always been very delicate, which is further than ordinary friends and worse than boyfriend and girlfriend. Except for the first time, I never had physical contact with Su Yingxue again. During that time, I would often burst out some inspiration and made many small toys for her. Several of them have won awards in the national college student design, which has greatly increased my reputation in the school. But I only do this for one person. I just want to see her happy. I don't want anything else.
On the day Su Yingxue graduated, I took her to the airport. She suddenly said to me seriously, "In fact, for the past two years, I have always regarded you as my boyfriend. But I know that real boyfriend and girlfriend are not like us."
I smiled and said, "It's good to be friends. If you become my girlfriend, I will lose my life."
"So you don't want to?" She looked at me mischievously and said.
"Well, on second thought, I would lose my life to be with you," I joked.
Su Yingxue looks red. She was silent for a while, then suddenly came up and kissed me on the mouth, which surprised me very much. But at this time, she did not have any shy expression, more of a sad.
Soon after graduation, Su Yingxue went to Europe to study. At the beginning, we had some correspondence. From her letter, I learned something about her family background, which is a large family and has great wealth. Since Su Yingxue graduated, she has not belonged to herself. In the days to come, there will be no intersection between us. The university experience is just a beautiful encounter.
With the passage of time, the communication becomes less and less until there is no further information. Everything before seemed to be a dream.
In the last semester of school, Feng Jia and I came together again, perhaps because of loneliness, or perhaps just because we were familiar with each other. Before long, we lived together.
Because the school has limited electricity, I rented a house outside in order to do a good job of graduation design in advance and have more time to find a job. Feng Jia also came to do her thesis. On an impulsive night, many things happened between us that would happen to students renting houses outside.
Although Su Yingxue still has a shadow in her heart, the days of cohabitation show that the relationship between Feng Jia and me is very different. I have already thought in my heart that after graduation, I will work in the same city and get married. Normal life is supposed to be like this.
The night before graduation, when I was going to tell Feng Jia what I was going to do, she smiled. She said she never intended to marry me. She asked me if I loved her with all my heart. I wanted to say yes, but Su Yingxue always existed in my heart, so I couldn't answer. She also told me that she didn't plan to work in Puhai anymore, but just wanted to go back to her hometown and live a safer life with me.
"What are we like this?" I was very puzzled. Feng Jia was not a casual person. From that night on, I felt that our relationship had finally been determined.
"You can be nothing. After graduation, you are you, and I am me. It is so simple." She said very nonchalantly. In my impression, Feng Jia didn't care about anything since then.
In the end, as she said, each went his own way and there was no connection.
Until now, I didn't know how ignorant and stupid I was. Feng Jia's mother died early and was brought up by her father. Her father has a bad temper, which makes her very disgusted with the family. But her father, who had been supporting her to go to college, suddenly fell ill and collapsed when she was about to graduate. Feng Jia had to take close care of her.
Unfortunately, when I knew this, Feng Jia left me again.