I missed you perfectly when I first met you
In fact, my first impression of you is not very deep. I only remember that many people called you "strange child" and "Martian". At that time, I saw you on TV as a "Martian". In a variety show, you ignored the whereabouts of your companions. When listening to foreigners playing alone, you cried. You took off your glasses and wiped your tears with your hands, At that time, I was puzzled. I even wanted to laugh. How could someone cry when listening to someone else's performance? At that time, I didn't understand your world, nor could I feel your loneliness. At that time, I was living in the sun.
It was the first time I saw you, but the ordinary change of channel broke my curiosity about you, and I also forgot you in my memory
In 2015, I heard your song "The King and the Beggar" for the first time. I liked this song at that time. I still remember that the slogan of this song was the first time that the Martian ghost sang a love song. I didn't think so. I thought what it was. Now, when this song came out, Are the ET people happy that they finally have a love song to sing with Hua Chenyu, which represents their love, but I still ignored him at that time, unable to see his light warming his fans, and unable to see his Martians.
In 2015, I have already entered junior high school. Slowly, I understand how life can be as smooth as the ideal. I also understand that there is still darkness ahead. In the darkness, there are also thorns and thorns. The muddy road full of thorns and thorns is also full of potholes. Even if I understand these reasons, the reality is too cold, but I can't calm down. My fantasy and my dream are shattered in reality. At that time, I wished there was a magical creature to save me, like the magician in the movie. With a wave of magic wand, all the troubles would be solved. But the reality would not let these things happen. He would only make things worse, let you clearly realize your situation, let you soak in pain every day, and secretly cry in the bed.
The teacher's homework after homework seemed to drown me out by spitting stars on the podium, and I could only bear it in silence. At home, it seemed that my life was monotonous and only learning. My parents were reminding me to write homework and read books all the time, but I didn't dare disobey them. The imitation of Buddha at home became my cage. The world outside the window and my world were free and repressive. Originally, the growth of such a involuntary; It turns out that learning is a pain; It turns out that not only canaries envy freedom.
At that time, I was in a bad state. At school, I always seemed to be working hard to catch up with my homework. At home, in front of my parents, I didn't even dare to breathe out loud. I was afraid of their scolding and shouting. It seemed that my life at that time was reduced to a puppet of my parents. I had to do whatever they said, no matter what was wrong or right. My pain is suppressed by me in the deepest place, and my hatred for them is also growing, and I want to escape from that home more and more. That cage that actually imprisons me in the name of home, I hate it.
From then on, I gradually became inferiority complex and felt that my life was controlled by my parents. They always asked me to follow their path in a good tone to me, but never asked me whether I was happy or not. I really want to know why they are always so conceited
In 2016, I once again heard Hua Chenyu's song [I take care of you] [Creator]. I finally stopped to look at him. His song is so arrogant and disdainful, so young, like it can give people unlimited passion, which makes people have the impulse to move forward without fear. But he is so different from his song, he is very special, Before him, I have never seen such a strange and special person. He is a star, but he is not as bright as other stars. He is very casual. His songs bring me a young attitude, but he is indifferent and has no youthful spirit, even though he is a young man, But he seems to be an old man who has seen all the prosperity of the world and finally chose to spend the rest of his life leisurely. His people and his songs are diametrically opposite, but they are so compatible. I don't understand why in 2016. At this time, I never expected that his special will bring him countless curses. Countless giant babies and neurotics were scolded by Hua Chenyu's strangers. The main characters were Hua Chenyu, and Hua Chenyu didn't know any of those people. That group of people, that group of mediocre people, that group of people who have made no contribution to the society, they think that what they call their own names, but they have not studied their own qualifications to abuse others, that group of people, that group of unkind people
After listening to [I take care of you] and [Creator], I began to care about Hua Chenyu, the shy and withdrawn boy.
In 2015, I prayed for a magic spirit to help me solve all my troubles, but the reality didn't even give me a chance to breathe. How could I have a magic spirit that can solve all my troubles. In 2016, I have survived a year, crying at night and loneliness. At this time, the former pain is still painful, but I have survived 365 days a year. I always feel that I will endure alone, and that pain can also become a habit. But Hua Chenyu appeared in my vision at this time, and made me care about him little by little. He would not solve all my troubles like a magic spirit, but he made me feel dependent, like being afraid in the dark, wandering in the sea, but suddenly I had a companion, someone to share the pain for you, like being alone for such a long time, There is a person who understands you, and he is as withdrawn as you. This emotion is more moving to me than getting the magic spirit, and it is more memorable to me, but it is just moving.
In 2016, I cared about Hua Chenyu, and at this time I only heard three of his songs, liked his attitude in his songs, but didn't know him very well. At that time, my favorite star was Lu Han, one of the four sons who returned home. He was good-looking and sang very well. I liked him very easily, and his videos were on TV and on my mobile phone. For me at that time, Hua Chenyu seemed to find a way to express my feelings in my heart. He was as arrogant as he was in his songs and did not care about the eyes of others. He gave me a feeling of dependence, but I could not match my love for Lu Han.
In 2018, I was about to graduate from junior high school. There was still half a semester left. At that time, my love for Lu Han had already disappeared, but what remained in my heart was Brilliance Yu, who could not resist. At the beginning of the year, he joined the singer. When I knew the news, I was a little excited and nervous. I felt uncertain. Maybe that was when I really knew him.
